thank goodness for alcohol, in particular sangria.

You have to be f*cking kidding me.

I'm going to go nuts. Scratch that. I'm GOING nuts.

This is insane. Why can't anyone respect the fact that I enjoy how my life is right now? Seriously! I've realized that the only thing I miss about being in a relationship is someone to bitch to about my family!! Oh my gosh...I'm going to have a conniption is this continues.

Okay, I'm not torn anymore. You can go and write "DUMBASS" across my forehead now because seriously, that's what I am.

Tonight, I relived more of my past than I would have ever liked. It was ridiculous.

"But you're good at these things."

So what if I am!?!? Freaking do it yourself already! and if you're going to ask me for help, don't fucking guilt me into helping you or make me believe that you actually consider me a friend or someone special. Bullshit, bullshit, bullshit!!Yeah, you may say I'm blowing this out of proportion but you know what!?!? When all is said and done, I still won't mean that much. Let's just admit it: I'm just good for homework, picking out birthday and christmas gifts, sending flowers, remembering to call, cooking and updating resumes and cover letters.

Well guess what? I quit.

so i'm just torn about a lot of things right now. now, i'm just anxiously waiting to move out. i can't wait. Then I can start baking and cooking again. Living at home is not good for my health on so many levels.

i wish there was someone i could talk to. why are all my friends flaking out on me!?!? ugh, this is so frustrating.

on the bright side, slowly but surely i'm getting family excited about a reunion. yay!

So I find it hard to believe that he's that big of an ass. I mean, he has friends so clearly some people like him. Yesterday, I was thinking about it and it occurred to me that perhaps his a-hole behavior is a defense mechanism on his part. Given the way things happened, it kind of makes sense, right? I mean, I purposely act like a bitch sometimes just because it's easier to not get close or involved again. But I don't understand why he takes it to such extremes. I mean, honestly, is it really necessary to be such a jerk after all this time?

I have no desire to study organic chemistry. I was never good at it and now I'm trying to teach it? It doesn't seem right. Surprisingly, I did REALLY well on the chem section. I think I did better on chem than I did on the verbal and reading comprehension. VERY messed up if you ask me but that's how it ended up. Anyhow, I myself don't even remember stuff about delocalization and orbitals. Oy!

Must concentrate. Obviously, that's not going too well at this point. =)

blog later,
me.

Welcome to the new venting space. It was time for a change. The fan club numbers were growing too rapidly. Besides, this way, there's a lot more anonymity. If you find this place, then kudos to you.

I need to go for a walk.

blog later,
me.